Silence

Although I must admit I enjoy to draw in public, there is something about lonliness that creates a different aspect to creating stories and drawings.

For one it's a lot harder. I love to impress the crowds. I like it when people say oh cool or wow or that's so pretty. Shallow one might claim but that does not mean I do not like it. Alone my language gets even more lyrical then I often bother with.

Here in the quiet I do not need someone to understand what I say nor mean. My thoughts are fragmented parts of a large jigsaw with the pieces all connected the wrong way. It is a different kind of world. And yet, the ideas I spin in the quiet often turn out to be the strongest and the longest lasting. And the coolest :D

So I have a couple of days in the quiet. And then I will return to my family at home. Things may also be quiet there.

But no. The seasons have changed this year. I think in terms of personal growth I pretty much stayed the same for the last three years. Something or other must have snapped and broken inside this year. And I know that conditions will not be the same any longer. What kind of conditions? I can't really say for sure, but just... conditions.

As expected I am not the only one in flux. I can also feel the change in people close to me. Those who were of my same year level at least. Juniors still stay as juniors haha. My closest friends from home have both changed... or reached some kind of epiphanies. So I am not alone in change. Funnily enough, I think this is also the period of life that my father underwent more or less the same experiences. I read somewhere that unknowingly we often retrace our parents footsteps, reaching the same realisations and understandings at the age they did.

Oh well. Let's experience a little more silence and hear what the earth has to say.

Tales that make you sad

Well since I'm trying to procrastinate just a bit let me tell you three stories that I have heard over the last few days that have got to me. All of them abot girls as well! And just cos I haven't done so for a while I shall write them in prose :D


There is a young woman who stands at the crossroads of life. Death has taken her father and the World has taken her mother.
There is a young woman who stands at the crossroads of life. She dreams of better things. She dreams of flying. But dreams only get you so far and then you need cash.
There is a young woman at the crossroads of life. With her is a young man at the crossroads of life. She likes him very much and he is a promising one. But these are the crossroads of life and they are cruel with partings.
There is a young woman at the crossroads of life. It is chill and cold and there is no one to catch her when she falls and the world can be a cruel place.
There is a young woman and she is at the crossroads of life...


From a lush green world, of heat and stiffling crowds. To a dry, dry land of alcohol and empty fields they came o'er the seas. Here the world spins the other way round and the people stand sticking to the globe like flies upside down. Here the rules breakdown and what was up now is down. Change was in the winds and deep in the minds and change it came to be. And as they traded one for the other, I can only frown. Whether it be of jealousy or prudence even I lie to myself, and end of the day all you can say is you don't know what you got till it's gone.


A little e mail winged its way to me. It was about prayer and faith and hope of a little girl where a grown up had none. And it came true! The chances were stupid the coincidence was astronomical. But I wonder... if the package had never came. If the answers were never given, what would we do? Would we have multiplied the message and sent it to a million people that God is dead and the universe is a cold, heartless thing. And when the Son of Man returns will he find any faith left on the earth...

Now I'm done :D

Strange

Creationism vs Evolution
Aye, there's a debate if you like one. Here at college there is a superb movement for crediting evolution and everyone just hates those intelligent design morons. :( Therefore, because I'm a supporter of Intelligent Design I cannot therefore be a scientific, objective, rational person cos I purport a theory that is based on nothing.
Haha. Oh dear, well even with evolution, I still think the conditions are too great to occur by chance - is that intelligent design? I don't think anyone ever said God waved a magic wand and pulled the universe out of a hat. I mean of course we could get into the whole discourse of probability, evolution mechanics, intelligent life, origins etc etc. And each side would still be convinced that their proof, methods and conclusions are unquestionable. No one sees the holes in their own theories, only holes in the other one. Kinda sad yeah?

Still, most people have at least come to the understanding that evolution does not discount God. Which I was pleased to hear.

However an interesting thought came to me this morning as I took a shower (the best place to come up with great ideas)

Once upon a time the sun revolved around the earth. Yep, and it was really obvious too. How would you dare argue with anyone before the time of Copernicus that the earth revolved around the sun? Logic demanded this. Sure some people noticed silly things. Venus liked to move retrograde every few years or so was noticed by even the early Greeks. But small anomalies like this could not dissuade you from the fact everyday you saw the sun roll across the sky.

Today the earth revolves around the sun. It is ludicrous to say otherwise. Yet, if Einstein was correct and everything is relative, everything is merely moving relative to one another and it is imprecise to say anything revolves around anything unless you first state a point of reference. Perhaps, one day we will laugh at those ancient people who thought the earth revolved around the sun.


What I'm trying to get at is this. We still know jack shit. Yeah, yeah start standing up and yelling we do know a lot more now. Carl Sagan says in his book that if a man from the year 1000 were brought into 2000 he would die from lack of understanding. And went on to say if a man from 2000 went to the year 3000 he wouldn't die because we are reaching the limits of discovery. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm sorry that's bullshit. Life, existence and concepts are hurtling forward at unbelievable rates and the holes in our knowledge are still abysmal.

So evolution vs creationism. Yah, go ahead, throw around the facts and wave fancy documents at each other. Scream, whine and bitch about how unreasonable and blinded the other side is. One by their faith in the mouldering, corrupted, brain dead church. The other by their hatred for God and the church, their love to find excuses to not believe and refusal to see all the problems with their wonderful evolution.

Sigh...

Evolution is still a theory. And since we have a lot of disagreements, I dare say it's not a perfected theory (and don't no one start going off about how it is complete and absolutely wonderful because it's still called THE THEORY of evolution) And please open up guys. What if God planned for evolution to occur? What if he did want you to come from an ape? What if the Genesis tales are in fact meant to be allegorical? Scientific discoveries do largely point at evolution but the sun doesn't have to revolve around the earth, get it?

Faith isn't about not doubting.
Faith is all about doubting. Having faith is not about believing that there is a net at the bottom of the cliff. Faith is about jumping off the cliff no matter the doubts.

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