Silence

Although I must admit I enjoy to draw in public, there is something about lonliness that creates a different aspect to creating stories and drawings.

For one it's a lot harder. I love to impress the crowds. I like it when people say oh cool or wow or that's so pretty. Shallow one might claim but that does not mean I do not like it. Alone my language gets even more lyrical then I often bother with.

Here in the quiet I do not need someone to understand what I say nor mean. My thoughts are fragmented parts of a large jigsaw with the pieces all connected the wrong way. It is a different kind of world. And yet, the ideas I spin in the quiet often turn out to be the strongest and the longest lasting. And the coolest :D

So I have a couple of days in the quiet. And then I will return to my family at home. Things may also be quiet there.

But no. The seasons have changed this year. I think in terms of personal growth I pretty much stayed the same for the last three years. Something or other must have snapped and broken inside this year. And I know that conditions will not be the same any longer. What kind of conditions? I can't really say for sure, but just... conditions.

As expected I am not the only one in flux. I can also feel the change in people close to me. Those who were of my same year level at least. Juniors still stay as juniors haha. My closest friends from home have both changed... or reached some kind of epiphanies. So I am not alone in change. Funnily enough, I think this is also the period of life that my father underwent more or less the same experiences. I read somewhere that unknowingly we often retrace our parents footsteps, reaching the same realisations and understandings at the age they did.

Oh well. Let's experience a little more silence and hear what the earth has to say.