The tension has died down just a bit

For a little while.
It has been some horrible nights of sleep over here. Especially the one on Sunday night. It consisted of a nightmare that wouldn't stop. I would wake from it only to fall back into it a moment from waking. It was full of dark presences congregating around me in my room. They weren't ghosts, they were demons. They were in some ways more real because I knew I was dreaming. Finally in one of my awake moments I dragged myself up onto the floor praying to God for protection verbally.

I haven't had one of those attacks for some time now. I'm blaming it on a book I just borrowed, Salman Rushdie: The Satanic Verses. Or maybe it was just a fever I was running that night since I also fell ill that day. A combination of both? I can never quite tell.

It was difficult to wake up the next day.
Then Monday night also had very little sleep but that was my own fault.
Same followed on Tuesday night.

So basically I'm very very sleepy and I am going to bed before twelve! Wow!

But I feel as though the tension has died down slightly in my life. Dentistry is taxing yes, but it's not insurmountable. And so it the social life. And so is the spiritual life. It's as if everything feels slightly better for no real reason.

I do not know. I give thanks for the slight respite in my life. And hope it will last a little longer.

Good night y'all