My brain feels mushy... like... like... seeweed....
It's one in the morning. I have decided I am going to force myself to sleep late because for the past three nights I have been waking up at four, going back to sleep then waking up every subsequent half hour till nine. Do you have any idea how exasperating that is? And every half hour I must without exception have a dream that leaves a bad taste in my memory. Why can't I have sweet dreams instead of these strange twisted things then maybe I wouldn't mind this so much!!! And even then, I want sleeeeeep!!!!! What the hell is wrong with me???
Sigh...
Teeng has made me a nice emoticon... I forget how to link things on the blog site. I'll post it or link it at some point of time. Right now my brain feels too painful to actually find out how and be responsible.
I think I may have bitten of slightly more than I can chew this time round. See, now I have to make the college magazine cos for whatever reason I still wanted to be useful around the college. It has recently come to my realisation that if my whole team does not workout it is still my responsibility still to complete the magazine. That means I have to make a minimum of 60 pages in a matter of 10 weeks starting now... Zzzz.... And next semester dentistry doesn't get any easier... So basically I'm screwed unless I'm very efficient and have the boundless energy some others have... which I don't... so I'm screwed.
Well, no, not totally screwed. I really hope people are going to help me and my crew doesn't let me down. Still... sigh. I mean I'll be proud of it and everything when it's actually completed. And the rough ideas I have right now aren't too shoddy. I am really unhappy I was not able to get the photos of Ee Lin before she left for Singapore though... Really annoyed at myself. But it was freaking exam time I'm not that freee!!! Gah I hate myself sometimes.
Sigh... this is sooo going to be like a tough test of efficiency and energy. AND I CAN'T GET DECENT SLEEP!!!!
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Can't chicken out now I suppose. And I had dreams when I took up this role and it would be so great to see them come to fruition. No pain, no gain eh? Damned old adage.
Just watched Flight Plan tonight (yah I know it's like superbly old). It was really interesting in the beginning. There was this whole sense of paranoia and you weren't sure whether who was crazy. The airplane was really creepy too and it was tense and worrying. But then they dumbly revealed everything... and the movie just went from A grade suspense thriller to B grade hijacking action movie. Sad... It's cruel, but for the movie's sake she should have turned out to be a crazy and there should have been an interesting psycho twist instead of the dumb hijack and they should have left us guessing all the way to the end.
Feel like blogging more crap.
Working for Dottie these days. Ironing sheets, cleaning up rooms, moving really heavy tables everywhere. I'm used to it I guess. But your mind does ponder over the strangest things as you stand there ironing. Things start to get really repetitive and you do it without thingking even so your mind starts to go places.
In a way I forget, that although everyone goes home and manages to do a bit of thinking and getting things back on track, I too am a someone. I also begin to patch up all the bits of my thoughts and life that don't make sense or that has been disturbing me inside. What does that mean? I have no idea. The things that you decide to do differently in the next phase of life happen suddenly and not suddenly. It's as though your subconcious is working behind this curtain that your concious is not allowed to see. And then suddenly just as the next stage of life is about to start, it decides to throw back the curtain and you just decide to do things differently.
Who knows what will happen next semester. The anger and turmoil that occured at the beginning of this semester feel as though it may be leaving. Back to a calmer more settled me. Perhaps....
Meh, I've crapped enough. Really tired now and I know if I keep typing I'm just going to rant more. Not that ranting is a bad thing, but I'm old and tired of griping. Haha....
Ok sleep Vong sleeo
Sigh...
Teeng has made me a nice emoticon... I forget how to link things on the blog site. I'll post it or link it at some point of time. Right now my brain feels too painful to actually find out how and be responsible.
I think I may have bitten of slightly more than I can chew this time round. See, now I have to make the college magazine cos for whatever reason I still wanted to be useful around the college. It has recently come to my realisation that if my whole team does not workout it is still my responsibility still to complete the magazine. That means I have to make a minimum of 60 pages in a matter of 10 weeks starting now... Zzzz.... And next semester dentistry doesn't get any easier... So basically I'm screwed unless I'm very efficient and have the boundless energy some others have... which I don't... so I'm screwed.
Well, no, not totally screwed. I really hope people are going to help me and my crew doesn't let me down. Still... sigh. I mean I'll be proud of it and everything when it's actually completed. And the rough ideas I have right now aren't too shoddy. I am really unhappy I was not able to get the photos of Ee Lin before she left for Singapore though... Really annoyed at myself. But it was freaking exam time I'm not that freee!!! Gah I hate myself sometimes.
Sigh... this is sooo going to be like a tough test of efficiency and energy. AND I CAN'T GET DECENT SLEEP!!!!
..........................................
Can't chicken out now I suppose. And I had dreams when I took up this role and it would be so great to see them come to fruition. No pain, no gain eh? Damned old adage.
Just watched Flight Plan tonight (yah I know it's like superbly old). It was really interesting in the beginning. There was this whole sense of paranoia and you weren't sure whether who was crazy. The airplane was really creepy too and it was tense and worrying. But then they dumbly revealed everything... and the movie just went from A grade suspense thriller to B grade hijacking action movie. Sad... It's cruel, but for the movie's sake she should have turned out to be a crazy and there should have been an interesting psycho twist instead of the dumb hijack and they should have left us guessing all the way to the end.
Feel like blogging more crap.
Working for Dottie these days. Ironing sheets, cleaning up rooms, moving really heavy tables everywhere. I'm used to it I guess. But your mind does ponder over the strangest things as you stand there ironing. Things start to get really repetitive and you do it without thingking even so your mind starts to go places.
In a way I forget, that although everyone goes home and manages to do a bit of thinking and getting things back on track, I too am a someone. I also begin to patch up all the bits of my thoughts and life that don't make sense or that has been disturbing me inside. What does that mean? I have no idea. The things that you decide to do differently in the next phase of life happen suddenly and not suddenly. It's as though your subconcious is working behind this curtain that your concious is not allowed to see. And then suddenly just as the next stage of life is about to start, it decides to throw back the curtain and you just decide to do things differently.
Who knows what will happen next semester. The anger and turmoil that occured at the beginning of this semester feel as though it may be leaving. Back to a calmer more settled me. Perhaps....
Meh, I've crapped enough. Really tired now and I know if I keep typing I'm just going to rant more. Not that ranting is a bad thing, but I'm old and tired of griping. Haha....
Ok sleep Vong sleeo
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